32 posts tagged “we're making progress”

that i'm in university.
and all the things that come with it.

its only been like 2 weeks since classes started, and i already have midterms in like the next couple of weeks.
on top of that, i am like lost in at least one of my classes, i have a shit load of work sitting and rotting on my computer, and i don't know where to begin.

the good thing though is that i'm keeping to my diet pretty well, although i have indulged in a couple of cookies and a few meals that consist of something more than a piece of meat and vegetables. kung fu is great. it prevents me from walking properly at times, but i think its helping me lean out.
well hopefully. i haven't checked a scale since i left the states, but i feel like a lot of the fat isn't there anymore.
hopefully i'm right and not just lying to myself.

and the guy i have a small crush on?
i really want to go and talk to him again, but we make eye contact like all the time and he doesn't say a word to me. so i'm getting the feeling that maybe he isn't interested.
man :(

was magnificent :D
just all in all, wonderful :D
uh oh, i just realized that i've been dating everything wrong today. like 3 days off bad :(
o well whatever.
now that i think about it, its kinda like i've been living in the past. all because i thought today was the 12th.
but its actually the 15th :/
alright whatever.

so first class today, pretty crazy :D
i have to plunk down about 80 bucks though for uniform and stuff though, but it looks good :D
hopefully i can learn a lot in the 3 months i have until i go back home for the summer :/

im kinda nervous, now that people are finally coming in, after i've basically been alone and free to walk from the bathroom to my room in just a towel, having to socialize with all these people kinda intimidates me. but i did it first semester, i can do it again :D plus i know them already, so it shouldn't be too hard!
today was splendid.
finally went to the buddhist temple! it was small but has all the basics. it felt good just to be there, my eyes were kinda tearing when i realized that i finally have a place to go :]
and then i basically went all around montreal just to look for my fkn george foreman grill. the idiots at walmart are lazy idiots who could care less if they had it or not. 
but lo and behold, i found one on sale! even cheaper than in the states! it must be fate :D
plus, i discovered a shit load of new places i can go :D
not to sound antisocial,
but its good to be going places by oneself.

i need to get a george foreman lean mean fat grilling machine tomorrow.
and then im going to go to temple :D for like the first time in ages. i really hope that they speak english :/ if i like it, i'll make it my regular go to temple :D:D
and then school :/
not that i hate it, its alright and everything. its just that i'm going to miss not having anything useful to do. and not having to stress about school work like 24/7
but i forgot,
thats what college is all about isn't it.

i cannot wait until i go home.
i feel like packing all my things now and taking the next available flight home.
but i guess i'll just have to wait until thursday.
i really miss all of you.
and good news is
i actually have about a week at home, not the few days i though i only had before my cabo trip.
friends, family, food, cheap, sun

i can't wait.

i feel different. very different, since like yesterday. i don't know what happened or how.
but i feel as if i've woken up from a deep sleep. opened my eyes after a 6 month long coma.  shifted the blankets off of me to the sun shining through the window. 

after about 4 months, i'm starting to feel like i'm home.
and thinking about my trip back to the states, it feels like i'm visiting my parents and my sister, not going home.

i found a chinese temple in downtown. i'm going to go there at least before i leave for the states.
i really need some spiritual renewal.
i need to finish christmas shopping, wrapping, getting cards, writing letters, sending packages.
i need to pack for toronto and going back home.
i need to call my friends.

now that i'm coming back to the states, and finding out that my parents are taking me and my sister to cabo san lucas for like 6 days, it means that i only have a few days at home to do what i want to do.  which means the time i have with my friends is pretty limited.
but that just means that i have to make the best out of the time given to me, and that means that i'm only going to hang out with the friends who really matter to me.
sorry for the rest of you, i really do want to hang out, but only if had more time.
so you know who you are,
we have a date when i get back :D

i've only got a week and 2 days left of lecture. and then after that will be hardcore final studying time. and then i'm home free :D
after all the commotion, i'm going to move down to the second floor and room with one of the last real friend i have who isn't leaving after the semester is over.  i hope everything works out with her so that way we can get an apartment in ste anne next year. 
i finally got my credit card and my phone. thank fkn god.
i'm counting down the days until i go back to the states.
when i come back up i'm going to bring up my skis :D
and hopefully valerie is able to bring her guitar over so i can buy it from her :D:D

its time for another couple of weeks of
HELL!
studying studying studying, writing lab reports, studying studying studying, cramming cramming cramming
and no time for me to exercise :(

i seriously feel like the typical poor college student they stereotype on tv, in books and in movies.
long story short, i ran out of money a the beginning of the week. the same time i ran out of real food.
so i literally have been living off of granola bars, ginger bread cookies, my stash of snickers and oh henry bars, water, my batch of crepes i made at the beginning of the week, the remnants of my nutella, rice and pasta. it sounds like a lot.
but one day all i ate was like candy bars. another day, i had boiled lettuce and rice.
no meat, no bread all week :(

so finally, this being nov 1st, i am able to buy foods.
i went all the way to IGA, the best grocery store in the entire world, no really, it beats vons, pushed a cart load of food over an overpass crossing three intersections, to the bust stop.
totally worth it after this week. but the hassle is way to much, so i'll probably never go there again unless someone drives me there.
and now i feel unbelievably happy, comfortable and completely at ease with the world because i finally have croissants, toast, nutella, and (among other things) two boxes of wonderful cookies in my third drawer.

k so went to this huge party, mcgill downtown students came, mac students were there, plus the numerous other friends they invited. it was actually pretty fun :D
went downtown today, and omg, really, its the best to see everyone, or at least about half the people in the spirit of things. seeing groups of guys dressed up as female slut elves, guitar heroes, robots, skater dudes and pirates was the highlight of my day.
other than that.
i have a lot of real heavy shit to do.
grocery shopping tomorrow, more homework :(
2nd round of midterms next mon and wed :(

early.
so like i've been telling everyone who's been asking, thanksgiving day was today, US columbus day, so i did the honors of making turkey. for the first time. and it turned out fkn good. like really fkn good.
i cooked it stuffed with apples and onions and poured cheap champagne all over it.
we had so much leftovers, its probably going to last until the end of the week :D
and we had rice, and gravy and the germans made some potato thing that was really good too :D we had some chocolate cake that one of them made :D
they recorded like me sticking my hand and forearm up the turkeys ass, and they took tons of pictures, they even decorated the table with candles and leaves from outside :D because i they don't celebrate thanksgiving in germany, its just a north american thing i guess.
it was lovely and warm and comforting and cozy and it felt a little like thanksgiving back home :D

i'm doing this instead of doing homework :( i've literally been procrastinating all fkn weekend :( :( :(
but i got an 88% on my chem final! YES! :D finally, actually a good grade :D its like an A+ in mcgill grading scale.
my other midterms really not that good, but according to mcgill grading scale, i got a B- on physics (67%) and eh, i got an F on bio, but then my bio prof is being really lenient and nice and allowing us to make it up by reading three chapters of the book and turning in one page summaries to get 3 marks on the test. which will boost my grade to a B. 
i have a calc midterm tomorrow which i literally am not studying for at all. period. because this shizz is so easy, well more like i know it because i learned it so many times which in fact makes me sound like a retard.
but im thankful, because that means i don't have to work as hard for it :]

so what am i thankful for this fine evening?
my friends back home and all over the place who i (thankfully!) still can talk to without noticing the distance between us, who i can still talk to about anything and everything, and are there for me when no one here can be
my family back home who are literally supporting me in everything right now
my experiences so far, being able to come here, being able to live here, being able to survive here, and being able to enjoy every single minute of it
the things i have learned, about life, people, places, relationships, and how to deal with it
the new friends i have at this moment, whether or not i'll be friends with them in a week, two weeks, a month, next year, at least they are here for me, with me, here and now
and being able to feel thankful, and grateful, and just wonder at all the things i have to be thankful for and how well i really am living

all i need now to top all this off is black friday. :( i miss you dirt-cheap-electronics-deals :(