11 posts tagged “back to the future”

and old year 2008

i look back and i feel as if compared to new year last year, my whole life's been turned upside down.  everythings changed.  who i hang out with, where i go to school, where i live, who are still my friends, who may become my new friends, my dreams, my goals, how i think.
to put it simply,
2008 was life changing.

there are still a few things about my life last year that i'm glad, very grateful, to still have, and hopefully i'll still have it until new year 2010.

but, its a new year, which means shedding old things, shaking them off your back.
so all those bad habits, grudges, feelings, BE GONE!
to make room for the good new things.

i don't want to stay here in laird hall any longer than this year. i mean, i don't hate it, but i don't absolutely love it either. sharing 6 bathroom stalls with like 20 girls, some that are messy dirty unhygenic and inconsiderate, a common kitchen that gets filthy by the end of the day, having only one real study place in the entire building, using a public washer and dryer, having to tote all my shower stuff around, and not being able to truly have my own space (my roommate is cool now, but still, i would prefer to have my own room), isn't something i want to repeat for next year.
apparently there are several apartments and houses that have cheaper rent, free wireless, heating, and all the extras down in ste annes.
i'm going to have to move downtown next or next next year anyway because there is one semester where i have to take all my classes downtown. i might not even move back after that :/
and then there are the "limits to how many credits i have to get on Mac campus".
hopefully that doesn't shoot down my study abroad semester/year :/

to study one year here at macdonald campus, then next year, transfer to the downtown campus, then the third year study in the united states as an exchange program from mcgill :D and then using mcgill exchange program, study somewhere in europe, france, germany, england and graduate :D
i don't know, maybe i just can't settle down or something, but i feel like going all over the place to study, just traveling and seeing the world, getting to know all the places i dreamed of visiting when i was little. i can't imagine me staying here in mcgill for the next 4 years, despite how much i've fallen in love with mcgill and montreal, i just don't see it.

so maybe i can do it :D

so last night i had a dream that i got poisoned by a huge ass snake and that i died.
in chinese, according to my mom, death is good, and snakes are bad. snakes represent shiau ren, or literally translated, little people. and little people are people who are out to harm you.
so that was weird, because it was super real and all that stuff.

second weird thing,
i went to borders to buy kite runner, and i forgot my 30% off coupon at home, but by the time i found out i was already paying at the cash register. so i was like, heck with it, whatever, i'll just buy it now. so i get into the car, and i realize that i could have saved $5 if i used it, so then i just HAD to return it. so i ran into the store and got in line behind this mixed family, the mom was some kind of asian, probably viet, and the father was french. and they had two of the most beautiful little girls ever.  I didn't know they were french until the dad kept telling the youngest daughter that the bag she wanted to buy was "a la maison". omg, they were so cuuutteee!!!! and the dad was super patient with the daughter who was running around and grabbing things off of the displays.
and earlier that day, i was talking to my sister about what kind of boyfriend i wanted to have, and then i ticked off qualities etc. top choice, i want a chinese guy who doesn't look typical chinese. number 2, i want a white/chinese mix guy. number 3, if it ends up as a white guy, he has to be like beyond hot and good and perfect, because i'd much prefer my own ethnicity over others. but my sister, and a whole bunch of other people (ahem, i think including my mom), want me to marry a white guy so that i can have beautiful kids, and i told her, eh, i don't really care too much about that.
but heh, maybe now i do.

it was really weird, but my sister was telling me about this dream she had.
k, all this is mostly directly from my sister's mouth.

start dream
i was with her at a cafe, and alex was introducing her to my two friends. one was a girl who looks like pam, but prettier and she was canadian. i had the feeling that it was alex's fencing partner. there was a white british guy with red/blonde hair and he had on a pair of nice corduroy pants and a sheepskin-lined jacket.  super super indie.  he seemed to be the joker kind of guy, and he looked pretty cute.  alex was wearing a striped scarf, her hair was tied up in a pony tail and she was wearing a pair of black thick rimmed glasses and they were all talking about intellectual stuff. and that was when alex said to them, "hey guys, this is my sister adrienne."
end dream.

you know how sometimes dreams come true? or they show whats going to happen in the future?
yes, we'll just have to see if it comes true and maybe a year or two from now, i will be introducing my sister to them and both me and my sister will look at each other at the same time and go "DEJA VU!"
now THAT would be pretty crazy frickn weird.

to paris, normandy and italy, and all over europe.
i need to start planning this with the people who want to go, but i'm probably going to go on the summer 2009 trip with Chino hills high and Ayala. then after that, i'm going to go visit some other places, like stay at Jenna's aunt's house in the French countryside, and then go maybe to Germany to visit Pam, and then hopefully London? I really got to save up, but omg, this is going to be the best trip ever.
people i know who want to come are
carlos, erilyn, sneha, josephine, pam, jenna, and thats all i know for now. we're probably all going to go our separate ways after the school trip, but at least we'll see each other during the school trip :D
so if anyone else wants to come, talk to me! :D:D
dreams dreams dreams

so i didn't get into dartmouth. not that i expected to, but it would've been my second choice if i did.
and i didn't get into carnegie mellon either, whatever, i didn't really care about going to that school
the only schools i got into out of my six are UCSD and McGill.
if i got into dartmouth, i would have to visit each college before i even thought about pressing the "accept" button on the application pages, and that probably would take a while. and with mcgill, i have to worry about applying a "permission to study" thing, and immigration crap starting like now.
so i think the universe is trying to send me some kind of message. like
"<static, whirring, radio tuning> Alex, MUST GO TO MCGILL! <electric short>"

because as much as i would like to go to UCSD, because of friends and its far enough away that i don't have to worry about going to eat with my family every weekend, but close enough that i can visit whenever i want to, its in beautiful La Jolla where just about everyone has a dog and the mexican and japanese food are simply delicious,
it just can't compare to mcgill.

so.
MCGILL IT IS!!!

so whatever life holds in store for me over there, because right now, i honestly have no clue how i'll manage by myself over there, and when i think about all i can see is a grey city with people speaking Quebec French, or how i'll end up or how i'll do with everything,
i know its going to be pretty dang exciting and wonderful and life changing.

COLLEGE POST!
i was really scared that i wasn't going to get into any of the colleges i applied too because my safety was ucsd, and alex xiao told me how that was his NUMBER 1 choice. and a whole bunch of people told me it was their top choice too, so i thought that maybe i was overshooting my bounds in my college application choices.
but at least i know now that i'm
GOING TO COLLEGE!!!

i didn't get into MIT but i think thats a good thing because i don't want to die in college of overstudying and boredom. i guess my priorities have changed since that day i made it my "life mission" to get into that school.
now i just want to get into
MGILL UNIVERSITY in montreal, canada.
and i'm really praying for that.
my sister on the other hand is happy to just stay in california. mainly because she wants to go to vet school and vet school is 8 years in college and she's worried about the costs to our parents (i am too, but not as much because i'm only going to school for 4 years). and she isn't to crazy about going far away, at least for now.

the main reason why i want to travel far away from home is because i really just want to get to know how to live my life without any of the things i know here that would hold me back, or deter it, or just not allow me to break out and live life the way i truly want to live it. not like i hate life here or don't absolutely love it, which i do, but i've always heard of people going away from home for like a year or two and come back as completely different people. because during that time away, they really got to discover who they were inside. a lot like one of those self-discovery movies you see sometimes.
i don't want to be completely changed when i come back, if my plans go through (2 years in canada, then 2 years over here in the states), because i like who i am now and want to still be the same me inside, but i just want to find out if there are some things i still don't know about myself.

so i'm not trying to go as far away from home as possible because i hate my family, or i hate living here, or i just don't want to be here. because its the absolute opposite, compared to my sister, i am much more attached to my family and friends and everything here (which is probably just going to make it that much more harder to leave). i really truly love everyone i know here and if i wasn't so bent on "trying to find my inner self", i would just pick a college close to where my best friends and friends are going so that i can still keep in contact with them and hang out and all that stuff.

but unfortunately/fortunately i'm not like that.

my parents always thought that i would be the one to stay close to home and my wild crazy sister would go and explore the world.

but it seems like they're wrong.
at least in this case.

I will be on that show when both my sister and I are 21 (the minimum age requirement for applying).
which would be like season 16 or 17 if the show keeps going, which it better!
because:
my sister speaks japanese and german
i can speak french
we can both speak a teeny bit of spanish
and we both can speak some chinese
and we've traveled to a lot of places, and we like traveling and we
almost got jipped by gypsies in barcelona,
spent days without our luggage (the airlines didn't send it with us until the next couple of flights)
both have a good sense of direction
both are physically fit
i've dealt with gypsies in paris
and i'd like to say at least one of us is street smart

so hopefully this is enough to get us in.
we're making an audition video the minute my sister turns 21.

i've never really thought of new year's being a big deal and all with those resolutions and stuff because it all seems like just a continuous cycle. it keeps going and going and going and going etc.
this time though, it feels a little different because...

next year will be the best.
i'm definitely moving out, because all the colleges are at least a 2 hour drive from my house. 
ryan and rachel, i WILL visit you guys whenever i have the chance. and when you guys visit me, i'll take you out and we'll have a night on the town.
and eunice, i'll hook you up with some college boyzz
concerts in the summer.
moving into a dorm.
getting a job as a night radio station host
refresh my tan. in Cancun.
striking out on my own.

but, we'll see.