i don't want to stay here in laird hall any longer than this year. i mean, i don't hate it, but i don't absolutely love it either. sharing 6 bathroom stalls with like 20 girls, some that are messy dirty unhygenic and inconsiderate, a common kitchen that gets filthy by the end of the day, having only one real study place in the entire building, using a public washer and dryer, having to tote all my shower stuff around, and not being able to truly have my own space (my roommate is cool now, but still, i would prefer to have my own room), isn't something i want to repeat for next year.
apparently there are several apartments and houses that have cheaper rent, free wireless, heating, and all the extras down in ste annes.
i'm going to have to move downtown next or next next year anyway because there is one semester where i have to take all my classes downtown. i might not even move back after that :/
and then there are the "limits to how many credits i have to get on Mac campus".
hopefully that doesn't shoot down my study abroad semester/year :/
but no thanks.
yes, guys like talking to me when they're drunk. but then again, most people like talking to just about anyone when they're drunk, which basically makes it meaningless.
even though it'll probably be lots easier to "break the ice" with alcohol,
i prefer my guys sober, thank you very much.
my thoughts.
i'm thinking about so many things :(
like
wow, i've only got about 1 month and a half before finals, midterms in about 2 weeks and i still have loads of work to do.
i don't have to deal with all this stupid shit work next year, because next year is when i get to actually take real engineering classes, like engineering design and the fun stuff, the stuff i actually signed up for, not this stupid high-school-level-but-harder crap.
screw virgin mobile, they can suck butt. i'm moving to koodo mobile. except i have to wait like another week before my credit card comes in, which they need to perform a credit check. they can't do it with my american credit card because their system doesn't accept it.
it rained all day today, soon its going to be snowing all day.
im having another alex-wants-to-go-buy-cheap-electronics urge. just like i'm having another alex-wants-to-eat-some-good-pho-and-thai-food.
i saw this amazingly good looking guy today in my chem class. wow was he hot, geez. too bad i didn't talk to him and he probably was just like a visiting person, because i've never seen him before in class :(
canadian healthcare sucks. its so bad. its worse than american healthcare. compared to here, american healthcare is like heaven. oh well, just more motivation for me not to get hurt or sick or deathly ill.
i got a haircut over the weekend. its about the same length, but thinned out, layered. i think it looks the same about, but everyone else tells me that they like it and that it looks really good :D
i ate two raspberry danishes, a mr. big bar, a slice of fruit cake, a ham and cheese sandwich, two pears, a fun size butterfingers, 2 shortbread chocolate cookies, ramen, and a small chocovanilla pudding. did i eat a lot? yes. am i going to get fat? hopefully not. i'm exercising three times a week now.
i feel like going downtown on the weekend, and eating some good food, and not staying in boring ste annes again. i have gone out to montreal every single weekend since i got a bus pass, and the one weekend i decide to take a break and stick around here, i regret it hugely.
i'm going to see stars in a month. and when i do, i'm going to buy stars clothes/merchandise/stuffs :D
halloween parties galore coming up. i just don't know which one i want to go to and what i want to dress up as.
there is absolutely no privacy in dorms. i mean, it can be good most of the times, because theres always someone to talk to, but then it sucks when i'm changing and my roommate walks in with her friends. or her friends walk in.
the cold is making my skin dry. very dry. i slap so much lotion on and it still isn't enough.
i'm in a predominantly french speaking province in canada and i don't think i've learned a single french word since i came here. except maybe the word for ass fkr. which isn't really that useful.
all the things i was anticipating on doing i can't do, and it'll all have to wait until probably next year.
i am living in a beautiful place.
i am in this one room in the basement where no one really goes. no one has bothered me. i think this might be the first time since i've really been all alone by myself (except for my room and that doesn't really count because people barge in all the time). it actually feels pretty calm and relaxing.
i think i'm the only republican here on campus. everyone else is either democratic or one of those crazy tree hugging left extremist liberals. i'm clearly in the minority so i refrain from mentioning my political stance just in case i get jumped by some unshaven smelly yelping hippie radicals on my way to class.
i'm surprised by how other people from other countries view america. most stereotypes are partially true, but some are just totally out there and completely biased.
i know i'm already changing since i've been here, but i'd like to think that i'm still the same deep inside, where it matters.
are my dreams too unrealistic? maybe. but, do i care?
most definitely not.
let me dream my dreams, they're a part of who i am, they're the main driving force behind how i choose to live my life, and sooner or later, i know that even the most unbelievable of dreams will come true.
i feel like my head is literally up in the clouds.
alrightey then
so last night was the first time i ever had to clean up after someone. as in like wasted and puking guts out all over the dorm hall, the bathroom, her room :/
a mop, two laundry loads, 5 cups of detergent and several sheets of clorox wipes later, we were able to clean most of it up.
it was dirty, tiring and downright nasty.
but hey, we're kinda all she has here (friendwise), so when the shit hits the fan, i at least want to pull through for her.
but yes,
that shit was nasty.
to study one year here at macdonald campus, then next year, transfer to the downtown campus, then the third year study in the united states as an exchange program from mcgill :D and then using mcgill exchange program, study somewhere in europe, france, germany, england and graduate :D
i don't know, maybe i just can't settle down or something, but i feel like going all over the place to study, just traveling and seeing the world, getting to know all the places i dreamed of visiting when i was little. i can't imagine me staying here in mcgill for the next 4 years, despite how much i've fallen in love with mcgill and montreal, i just don't see it.
so maybe i can do it :D
early.
so like i've been telling everyone who's been asking, thanksgiving day was today, US columbus day, so i did the honors of making turkey. for the first time. and it turned out fkn good. like really fkn good.
i cooked it stuffed with apples and onions and poured cheap champagne all over it.
we had so much leftovers, its probably going to last until the end of the week :D
and we had rice, and gravy and the germans made some potato thing that was really good too :D we had some chocolate cake that one of them made :D
they recorded like me sticking my hand and forearm up the turkeys ass, and they took tons of pictures, they even decorated the table with candles and leaves from outside :D because i they don't celebrate thanksgiving in germany, its just a north american thing i guess.
it was lovely and warm and comforting and cozy and it felt a little like thanksgiving back home :D
i'm doing this instead of doing homework :( i've literally been procrastinating all fkn weekend :( :( :(
but i got an 88% on my chem final! YES! :D finally, actually a good grade :D its like an A+ in mcgill grading scale.
my other midterms really not that good, but according to mcgill grading scale, i got a B- on physics (67%) and eh, i got an F on bio, but then my bio prof is being really lenient and nice and allowing us to make it up by reading three chapters of the book and turning in one page summaries to get 3 marks on the test. which will boost my grade to a B.
i have a calc midterm tomorrow which i literally am not studying for at all. period. because this shizz is so easy, well more like i know it because i learned it so many times which in fact makes me sound like a retard.
but im thankful, because that means i don't have to work as hard for it :]
so what am i thankful for this fine evening?
my friends back home and all over the place who i (thankfully!) still can talk to without noticing the distance between us, who i can still talk to about anything and everything, and are there for me when no one here can be
my family back home who are literally supporting me in everything right now
my experiences so far, being able to come here, being able to live here, being able to survive here, and being able to enjoy every single minute of it
the things i have learned, about life, people, places, relationships, and how to deal with it
the new friends i have at this moment, whether or not i'll be friends with them in a week, two weeks, a month, next year, at least they are here for me, with me, here and now
and being able to feel thankful, and grateful, and just wonder at all the things i have to be thankful for and how well i really am living
all i need now to top all this off is black friday. :( i miss you dirt-cheap-electronics-deals :(
so, oddly enough, canadian thanksgiving is on US columbus day, so i'm getting a three day weekend this weekend. my roomie is gone for the weekend (punching air!), so that means i have the room to myself!
i want to make a huge turkey, enough to feed us for about a week at least :D
make all the fixings, stuffing, mashed potatoes, gravy, the works, and hopefully make the most fkn delicious turkey ever. of course, the fact that i've never done it before kinda is bad, but i'll try it. i'm good at following directions :D
i've been invited to go clubbing tom night.
i'm really debating on going, because i really really want to go, and finally take a break, but then i still have one last midterm on tuesday.
but the midterm is for calculus, the stuff of which i basically learned twice already, and have been able to keep up in class without really paying attention to anything my prof is saying.
and i have homeworks to do :(
but then its only one night :/
and i don't really have anything to wear.
eh, i'll see.
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and my parents already bought my ticket to go home :D so i'm going on the 22, coming back on Jan 2. omg, i'm so excited :D
i miss getting cheap food, frozen yogurt with pick your own toppings, popeyes chicken, taco tuesdays, cue, driving wherever i want to go, driving, electronics shopping, cheap shopping, good shopping, familiar surroundings, and most of all the people :D
when i get back, i'm going to pack my stay with as much of it as i can fit in :D
YAY! to $1 popeyes chicken, driving to cue and Cherry on Top, waiting in lines for after christmas shopping, stocking up on much needed supplies, unusually warm perfect chino hills weather, outlet sales, the convenience of having everything within 5 miles, driving my baby with the windows rolled down, warm sheepskin seats and music blaring from my speakers, coffees with my friends, frozen yoghurt with my friends, driving with my friends, everything with my friends, and
being home for the holidays :D:D:D:D
so i'm friends with these germans, they come from all over germany, and we were talking about me visiting them and them visiting me (apparently LA is a huge thing in germany), which i really would love to do. we were all getting excited and all that stuff.
and we got to the point of getting serious about it, and when to get tickets.
but i'm a little apprehensive.
first off, i don't know what will happen between now and the end of the year, two of them are leaving at the end of the first semester, will i still want to go? will they still want me to come? things have changed so much since the first day of september, i hope not, but in order for me to plan, i have to start soon :/
and when they come to LA, i will have to prepare, since i will basically be driving my parents car if i take them out, and pay for gas, and that means i have to get some money, which means getting a job, and if i get a job, i won't really be able to take them out, and if i can't take them out, they're basically stuck in the hotel or wherever they are going to stay.
this is when i wish i really had my own place to stay. asking my parents to host three girls is going to be pretty hectic and stressful and especially, make them angry at me just for even thinking of asking.
and when i go to germany, or europe for that matter, i have to get money from somewhere, and i don't have a job.
my parents know how i want to go eurotripping this summer, and they told me that whatever scholarship money i get, they will match it.
but the hard part is that i live in canada and go to a canadian school and all the scholarship sites i know are for US, and the Canadian scholarships i have no idea about.
man.
my dreams are being shot down one by one because a stupid thing like money. or lack thereof.
well this is what i plan on doing if i can do it
since my school ends in april, i have several options
my aunt wants to go to paris with me, but i don't know when
jenna has an aunt who has a house in the french countryside
pam has an apartment in germany
so i'm thinking, go to paris first, then to jenna's place, then somewhere else, i don't know where, and then by then it will be mid june, when my german friends are done with their school, and then one week at each of their places, one week at valerie's (frankfurt), one week at thea's (frankfurt), then one week at muege's (kolon) and then we all take the same flight back to the states, where i will take them out for maybe a week or so.
please dreams come true.
